Well. I had every intention of posting daily while I was at the Vermont Studio Center, it just couldn't happen. I was way too busy. I came home on Monday and went to work. That was not a good idea. It was like I was in shock. I needed more time to transition to being home.
While I was gone I freaked out about Zeke growing up. A real irrational freak out. Thank God it happened while I was away so he didn't have to hear it. He did hear it though a couple of days ago. I have tried to keep myself under control. It is wonderful watching him grow and incredibly painful. Another transition of how to parent my son who is rapidly nearing adulthood. That is so strange to say. The residency was the first time I left my family. My kids have left home, Ophelia for weekends and Zeke for summers visiting his dad in California, but this is the first time I left. I wasn't here to hold down the fort. I felt unavailable, it was all new to me. I'm learning how to deal, with a good dose of laughing at myself.
